HOPE: A LIFE INSURANCE

by Najeeb Yusuf Ubandiya

Niger, Nigeria

She wears a beaming yellow robe. Hope,

She walks past a few trees of silver leaves

The morn is here, just rose from death—

Again—like the oleander. & she holds

A bouquet of brilliant flowers. Again, walks

Past the old men in black jeans and boots.

‘T is me, to whom she heads to, again,

Walks into the meadow and now to me

Hands me over the bouquet & starts to say

Words, but the meadow ate the first ones.

The bouquet, which by hands I squeeze

Drops petals of lovely red roses—& thorns,

as well—to the ground. I could feel the

Autumn in my hands, I could feel the

End of summer— Agitated air protesting

Against my skin, & she says, again, “I am your

Life insurance.” Tells me to not bury myself again

Under the carpet of leaves. Tells me

To pick my battles wisely. Her words feel like

A rescue.

AN ANTIDOTE TO DESPAIR

by Najeeb Yusuf Ubandiya

Niger, Nigeria

Relationship with yourself is so demanding

& complex;

How much of unique despair and pain do you

Conceal/carry & still make moves

Around the house

Looking forward today, towards adorning

The books

& unfinished manuscripts with true

Illumination— but your heart

So withered

Like a leafless maple tree.

Every night, you host a party for despair

He dances

Around & sings out your other names: “Numb”

“Scared,” “Angry," “Helpless,”

“Overwhelmed,” “Paranoid”

But tonight you decide not

To show up in the backyard— rather retire

To your solitude,

Build boundaries & send the elderly thoughts

In your mind to a nursing home,

Be an unloving child to them

Leave them abandoned.

& When they die; border their graves

With a garden of plastic flowers & have

The Angels water them.

 
 

Najeeb Yusuf Ubandiya

Najeeb Yusuf Ubandiya is a young poet from Nigeria. He is a loner who writes to find out what he thinks and feels—about himself and the world around him—and to keep his purpose awake and breathing. His works have appeared in Afro Literary Magazine, Blue Marble Review and Ngiga Review. You can find him on twitter @najeeb___X